“Everything happens for a reason”.
As you can quite clearly see from the title I split from my partner of 7 years & the father to my baby in June last year.
This post has been playing on my mind for a while now, I have had some amazing messages from people who follow me on here & my instagram. I have wanted to explain a bit more but didn’t really have the words or courage to do so. So, here goes…
Myself & Lennon’s father weren’t happy together anymore, I decided we needed to go our seperate ways and then I found out a whole load of stuff about him which I had no idea about. No need to to into details as one day my little Lenny will read this (I hope) and he doesn’t need to see me talking bad about his father. Also I would prefer Lennon to live life with two happy parents then ones that argue all the time. Turns out, we still do that anyway. A lot has gone on between us over the 7 years but having a baby together really didn’t help us. As much as it has hurt me that this is happening there was just no other way, I always say ‘everything happens for a reason’. I just hope that in the future we can get along and be civil for our beautiful babies sake! He doesn’t deserve anything else. Lennon does sometimes but very rarly still see’s his father and that side of the family & I couldn’t fault his Nanny at all. She has been amazing through everything and we really do love her. She will always be apart of our lives and I don’t know where I would be without her now.
As for Myself & Lennon, we are happier then ever, we spend so much time together, do so many things & make amazing memories. Everything I do is for him and always will be that way. We have a lot planned for the future and I am so excited for that. Lennon & I have such an amazing group of family and friends around us and we appreciate everything everyone does for us. Going back to work has helped us both loads but has also challenged us immensely. I wont lie and say I don’t struggle because I do, I have a lot of down days but the good days out weigh them. I really wouldn’t have coped so well without all my amazing family/ friends or my mum group. That group has helped me through the worst of it all as they all understand me more then anyone. No need to name any names as you know who you are, we have done so many lovely things together now and will be my best friends forever. Thank you all if you are reading!
The thought of being a single mother terrified me, I automatically felt so alone and I find I really over think everything now. I am probably being silly but I also find that I get judged a lot more! Being a single mother is so common now and I admire so many single mothers out there, it is extremely hard to be a parent but having a baby to look after 24/7 is so so difficult. Not that I don’t love doing everything as Lennon is my world but it doesn’t mean it is easy! One of my biggest worries is that I always wanted more then one child, what if that never happens now? Who will want to date a single Mum? How will I find time to do anything by myself? Like I said earlier, everything happens for a reason so if it happens it happens, if it doesn’t. I have still got my precious Lennon. Onwards & upwards!
If anyone is going through a breakup or anything similar please don’t hesitate to talk to me. I am a really good listener when it comes to things like this.
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